Jake and I are finishing up work responsibilities for the year 2024 today. Myself, almost, I do still have some clinic appointments. But Jake, it's official. His last day at Braun is today.
He surprised me by submitting his official last day of work approximately three months ago. Yes, you would think ample time for Braun to arrange a replacement to be trained... but let's leave soapboxes alone for today. (In all honesty, it's not fairly even my soapbox, will have to have Jake post sometime.) He submitted the date before we had really started talking seriously with WorldVenture, and long before we had started the application and interview process, which we are currently treading our way through. It was his faith in God's direction through a rather unknown, uncertain future that surprised me. Letting go and jumping without the parachute strapped to his back. To us, seems like a leap of faith, in reality, God is just asking us to take the next step a trust.
So as he has been frantically trying to tie up as many loose ends as possible at Braun this week, I've been undergoing the usual juggling process on my side of things. I'm not sure why, but stress has been higher as well. Perhaps, I'm feeling it from Jake, or perhaps because we will be gone next week and I don't like leaving work for my partners, perhaps all of the above. Either way, I had a thought. Just a moment, I remembered what it was like as a resident to show up, operate all day, and though I took the responsibility as serious as I could, ultimately there was an Attending where the buck actually stopped. That thought, "wouldn't it be nice to not be responsible for what happens to everyone." And then I shook my head and vanished the thought; 99% positive simply stress-induced delirium. Ha.
We are both looking forward to the end of the week. I am proud of Jake, and thankful for his leading steps. It is fun having a front row seat watching him become the man God wants him to be.
Much Love.
